Sid's POV

I sat in my car unable to move, tears streaming down my face. I couldn't bring myself to leave her house. I knew once I drove away it would be over.
Over? How could we be over before we even got started? What the hell happened in the last few days, hell, the last 12 hours to change everything? We were getting so close, she was finally letting me in, I don't understand where this is coming from. How could she look me in the eye and tell me she felt nothing after that kiss?
Ahhh... that kiss. I've waited so long to kiss her and it couldn't have been more perfect. I've never experienced anything so intense. The passion and warmth in her lips when she returned my kiss, her hands exploring my body...damn! I swear she must of been able to hear my heart beating. Bullshit she felt nothing! But could she really look me in the eye and lie?
Fuck! What the hell do I do? Why did I tell her I'd leave her alone? That was the last thing I wanted to do. I am so confused right now I don't even know where to begin!
I laid my head back and closed my eyes. Going over the conversation again and again in my head wasn't helping. Maybe she was right! Maybe I went too far. What did she say? Too much, too fast. You fucking idiot! You just couldn't let it be could you? Lily warned me this would happen if I pushed too hard. Now look what I've done! I pushed her into something she wasn't ready for and in the process may have lost the best thing that's ever happened to me forever!
There has to be something I can do to fix this, but what? Maybe start by doing what you said you would for once jackass! Maybe I just needed to give her some space and leave her alone. Maybe a few days will give her a chance to calm down and see things clearly. Maybe it will make her realize how she really feels about me, how much we mean to each other and she'll come to her senses. The best plan of action is to take no action at all.
That's a fucking stupid plan! But what choice do I have? I need to talk to someone who isn't so close to the situation. This is the kind of thing I would normally go to my dad about, but that isn't going to happen. Not given the way he feels about the subject. Lily? She knows Bekah better than anyone, maybe she'll be able to tell me how to fix this. At the very least,maybe she'll be able to tell me what's going on. And Mario. Definitely Mario. He's the only one who knows how I really feel about her.
I took one last look at her house before driving away. It was a place that already held such happy memories for me. And unfortunately one very painful one.