Chapter 103

I AM FREE! Semester over...I AM FREE (for three weeks at least!) Updates here I come!
Sorry guys, this chapter isn't really what I wanted it to be but...such is life!

"What...? Are you...? Oh my god," I said sitting straight up in bed. "Are you asking me...are you asking me what it sounds like you're asking me?"

"Well, what would you think if I was?"

"I would think you've completely lost your mind!" I screeched jumping out of the bed and throwing on shorts and a t-shirt. "I'd say you're just a kid and you have no clue about what the implications of that question could be," I finished heading out of the bedroom and down to the kitchen.

He heard the cupboard doors slamming and peeked around the corner to see if it was safe to enter.
"Hey," he said slowly coming towards me.
"Do you not have any fucking coffee in this place!" I yelled opening and slamming yet another cupboard door.
"I told you this place was really inhabitable yet and there's a Tim Hortons just up the road."
"Oooooh, Tim Hortons! I miss Timmies..." I trailed off almost forgetting what sent me on my coffee rampage in the first place.

Sidney came closer to me and took my hands in his. "You're shaking," he said.
"Well, what do you expect!"
"Too be honest? Not the reaction I got."

I let out a huge sigh like my whole body was deflating and slid down the cupboard and sat cross-legged on the floor holding my head in my hands.
"I'm sorry," I mumbled. "But for god sake Sidney..."
He joined me on the floor before saying "No, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to freak you out. Please don't take this the wrong way but, I'm not asking you to marry me..."
"Seriously?" I popped my head up.
"Seriously," he half laughed.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and squeezed...hard!
"Well, I certainly never thought a woman would be so excited not to have me ask her to marry me," he giggled.
"I'm just relieved. I had no idea how I was going to tell you no. We're just barely a couple; we haven't really been a couple together in the same city. I love you, but we need to figure out how to be together and keep it private before we even consider taking a bigger step. Let's just enjoy being together for a while."
"Agreed. Look, last night was really emotional for me..."
"A side of you I love by the way," I interrupted.
"One that hopefully you won't see for a long time. Anyways, I didn't know how to feel what I was feeling let alone put it into words. I just wanted you to know that I didn't take last night lightly. I am so in love with you Beks...I wanted you to know that I am 100% committed to this relationship. It's not a casual thing for me and I'm not going anywhere."
"Wow. That was pretty heavy for first thing in the morning, especially with no coffee."
"You just can't resist the sarcasm can you? I'm pouring my heart out and your making wisecracks. Nice."
"But that's what you love about me right?" I said in my best sexy pouty voice and sliding over and nipping at his ear.
"One of the many things," he moaned in a deep lusty growl.
I climbed on his lap facing him and wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. I kissed my way from his ear down his jaw and up to his lips. Mmmm those lips!
"What can I do to make you forgive me?" I whispered in his ear.
"You're doin' it baby," he groaned as he ran his hands up my back.
"Whatya say to round three?"
"I'd say I think I've unleashed a monster."
"I just wanna make sure you don't loose that legendary stamina you claim to have over the summer. Think you can keep up to me Crosby?"
"Oh, I think I can find a way!"


Two hours later I was in the shower barely able to stand up. Who the hell was I kidding? Could he keep up with me? I must admit, I put up a very good front but made a mental note to self: start working out again!

I was towel drying my hair when the most heavenly scent tickled my nose.
"For you madame," Sid said handing me the familiar brown cup.
"Oh-my-god! Is that? French vanilla? Mmmmm. I have missed you so very much," I said taking a sip of the nectar of the gods!
"I sure hope I get that reaction when I come home from a road trip!"
"We'll see," I smiled coyly.
"So what do you want to do today?" he asked.
"There's one thing I have to do before we do anything else."
"What's that?"
"I need to find Max and make sure he's okay. He's taking this Brittany thing way harder than I thought he would."
"I know he refused to stay at my parents' house. I think he still went to the hotel. We can go as soon as you're done."
"No offense hun, but maybe it would be better if I did this on my own. I know none of what happened is your fault but who knows how Max is going to feel. I'm sure he doesn't need any visual reminders right now."
"Yeah, you're right. How 'bout you drop me off at my parents and then head over to the hotel and see what you can do. Maybe you can convince Max to stay up here with us for a few days. The rest and relaxation will do him good."
"I don't know. I just have a really bad feeling in the pit of my stomach."
"Bad feeling about what?"
"I have a feeling he's going to self destruct, and I'm going to do everything I can to stop it."

Just a Quick Note

Hello all,
Just a quick note to say, I haven't disappeared but my life has been crazy busy lately. I am in the midst of completing final projects and writing final exams for this semester (6 days left and counting!) so that has been taking up every second of my free (writing) time; not to mention basketball practices and games and baseball practices I'm trying to get two boys to because my wonderful husband is now working out of town and is only home on weekends! I AM A SUPERWOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR! (Praise to single mothers/parents everywhere who do this everyday!)
On top of that I've just recently had three children added to the group I care for and all three are EXTREMELY high needs either developmentally or behaviourally. I love them all to death, but the other day when two of the three were away, I realized just how much energy they suck out of me on a daily basis. I am mentally exhausted most days! I wouldn't have it any other way though, after all, this is the career I chose and the reason I'm going through all this masters agony!
For the record, I am not complaining! I am extremely lucky and have a very blessed life. I do not for one second take it for granted!
I hope to have updates for both my stories up within a week; I am desperately craving the need to write and release the pent up ideas my mind has for Sid and Bekah and Kris and Brie and I fear if this release does not happen soon, my brain will explode!
I know I've said this before, but I can't say it enough; thank you to all the loyal readers for sticking with me. You are loved and appreciated.
Cheers!
~B~

Chapter 102

-----------Sidney's POV-------------

I couldn't sleep.

I don't understand what's happening to me right now. I'm laying in my own bed, in my own house, with the most beautiful angel in my arms and I am so overcome with emotion I don't know what to do or how to deal with it. I was not a emotional person; hell I am notorious for being unemotional - almost "robotic", but right here, right now, my feelings were so overwhelming I had to let them out.

I slid out of bed carefully so I didn't wake Bekah up. God she was beautiful! I could just watch her sleep all night; the way her hair fell on the pillow framing her face; the way her lips slightly parted and pursed outward like she was pouting; the way she wrinkled her nose when she was dreaming; the content little sigh she let out whenever she moved or rolled over. God damn I am so in love with her!

I made my way into the bathroom and shut the door, put my hands on the counter and stared at my reflection in the mirror. I was shocked by what was staring back at me. It was no longer the reflection of a kid obsessed with hockey and making his parents happy; or the guy who had the weight of the entire hockey world on his shoulders; or the media darling who could never say no to an interview. No, looking back at me tonight was a man. A man who for the first time in his life had something other than hockey to think about. A man so unbelievably happy and so in love with the woman asleep in his bed that he didn't know how to cope.

I lowered my head and began to sob uncontrollably. I tried to stop but I couldn't. Men don't cry! What the fuck is going on with me? The warm, soft hands around my waist scared the hell out of me.

"Sidney, what's wrong?" she asked with a hint of concern in her voice.

"Nothing," I replied standing up quickly forcing her to let go of me, but she came right back and put her arms around me. We were now looking at each other in the mirror but not saying a word. She kissed me softly across my bare back sending an electric sensation through my entire body, yet I still could not stop crying. Bekah moved out from behind me and leaned against the counter facing me. We didn't speak, she just rubbed her hand up and down my arm soothingly.

It seemed like an eternity until I was able to pull myself together. When I finally looked at her I noticed she was wearing nothing but one of my Pens t-shirts and it was no time before it was evident how much I liked what I was seeing. I moved so I was standing in front of her, lifted her up and stood between her legs. As I stood there, staring into her eyes, I could only think one thing...'I have to have her now!'

My mouth enveloped hers and I kissed her like my life depended on it. I ripped that shirt off over her head and let myself begin to ravage her.

"Sidney," she said breathlessly.

"Hmmm," I managed between nibbles.

"Tell me what you want," she whispered.

"I want you."

"No, tell me what you want," she demanded.

'This is it,' I thought. 'We did it right the first time, now the gloves are off. I have so much pent up emotion I need to let out.'

I kissed my way from her shoulder up her neck to her ear. I took her earlobe in my mouth. Ever so slowly I whispered, "I want to fuck you."

"Mmmm," she purred. "Then do it."

I pulled her to the edge of the counter and in one swift movement rammed my aching erection inside her.

I was laying with my head on her stomach enjoying the feeling of her fingers running through my hair. We were still naked and the sun was starting to come up over the lake.

"Sidney?"

"Mmhhmm?"

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"About what?"

"Earlier?" she asked timidly.

"Oh. I just...I was overwhelmed with so many different emotions and I didn't really know what to do with that ya know? I'm just not used to loving anything but hockey and now..."

"And now what?"

"And now I have you and the boys. Beks, for the first time in my entire life, hockey isn't the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning, it's you. I used to get lost in my own little world, usually thinking about how I can improve my shot or what I could have done better in the game the night before or who I have to go sit through another painful interview with. Now I'm wondering what you're doing, how many goals Alex scored in the game that I had to miss, what video game Jake is going to want me to play with him that night, how many babies you had to comfort while they got treatment, what we're going to have for dinner, what you're wearing! I just never loved anything more than hockey before."

"What are you saying Sidney?"

"I'm saying that the day I met you, my life changed forever. The first time you told me you loved me, I thought it couldn't get any better, but I was wrong. Making love to you last night was the best night of my life and giving ourselves to each other so completely only reassured me of one thing."

"And what would that be Crosby?"

"This is what I want my life to be. This is how I want to spend the rest of my life. With you."